When I'm with you, I feel like I'm on top of the world. The things you say to me and the way you look at me, I feel like that's the best thing that could ever happen to me. Like I'm going to live forever, and do anything, and be someone, and no one can stop me. The way you look at me makes me feel like exactly the opposite of what everyone's told me my whole life. I don't feel ugly, or worthless when you tell me you love me.
But the second you're gone...I feel my whole world crashing down around me. I walk back into my house and I can feel the love and warmth and happiness just seep away as images of you and the other girl(s?) run through my head. And even though you say it's over and it's never going to happen again...How can I be sure? Isn't that what you said before...? And still, where are we again?
I don't trust you. Every time I try, and I start trusting you, you do something to screw it up again.
Am I not good enough for you? Is that why you keep doing this? Are you unhappy with me? Have I done something wrong? Am I not attractive enough?
What is it? Just tell me so I can fix it, because I don't want to live without you but I don't wanna go through this anymore. I can't do this anymore. When I ask you "why?" I don't want you to say you don't know. You did it for some reason. Just tell me what it is. What did I do, or what am I doing?
I haven't felt any sort of intimate, romantic, more-than-friends emotions for anyone since I met you...Isn't that enough to show you I love you?
My love for you isn't the question...It's vice versa. Do you really love me like you say you do? Or is this what you said way back when. You're only saying it to make me feel better about myself. To keep me from hurting on the inside.
I hope that's not what it is this time...
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